Hey, look at this. It's only for you. :)

The present i gave probably is not the most expensive one between all of your presents, but i did spend a lot of time on it, so preciouskan okay! And i know you will be reading this article, so i actually saved my money by not giving you a birthday card, if i did, you'll throw it anyway. So, blah. And yeah, this article dedicated to you. ONLY ;)
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Hey, 21 years old d lah bitch, it's time to grow up and learn how to forget stuff. I know i told you like 15416546132 times, and you promised me like 564864321321 times, but you never actually done that. It's time to have some different wishes, being stubborn is not helping, and not gonna make your wish come true anyway. Watching you in pain is bad, and i know that feeling somehow, HAHAHA. Please, this time make it real. I know it's hard, but at least try kay!
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Owh, next time, wear the skirt i gave you, and we dating again kay?
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Happy Birthday and may your wishes all come true. :)

No, no scream, just talk.

It has been a long time, still, i couldn't let it go. Don't ask me why, i just couldn't, with no reason. I hope someday, someone will be replacing someone, something will be changed, and somewhere will be gone far away. But before that day comes, i need to hold and try to get used to that kind of pain. Or misery i would say.
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Honestly, there's nothing i can do, nothing. Sometimes, you just can't get what you want even though you tried hard, no why, if that is not belongs to you, then that will not and never belongs to you in the future anyway. It's worth to try thou. It makes you grow, makes you strong, makes you become a better person, that's what i feel. Probably there's a little bit disappointment, pain and scar, but at the end, worth it, so worth it.
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Anyway, I want you to be mine.
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'You, coward.'
'Yes, i am.'

No, i'm still a free thinker.

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'A spectacular blend of arts, music and performance from countries around the world.' -- International Cultural Nite.

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So i went to this with Melissa and Christine, with Michael invitation. First of all, i have to say, they've blended into Malaysia cultural so well, event supposedly should start from 4, but they started from 5.30, typical Malaysian cultural. Anyway, we saw Mr. Zahari and his son too, but they'd left before the event end which is understandable, first, Mr. Zahari was kind of sick and secondly, i can't imagine how's that feels as a Muslim sitting inside the hall and listening to others praising to Jesus. And NO, i don't know Muslim can't go inside the church. Slap me please, but that was only a hall with a huge christian cross, not a church, so it's okay lar. And Bryan and Michelle and Michelle parents were there too.

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Bryan and Michelle, still gorgeous.

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I met a lot of people from other countries with different skin color, language, cultural and personality through this event and i learned something about people which is quite such a impact to me, especially people with black skinned. When i was small, my mum always threatened me with black people (no matter is Indian, Bengali or African, just black people) if i did something wrong or i tried to do something bad, so this mindset had been set into my brain for 20 years, until i met Michael. From that moment on, i feel like they are just like us, normal people, probably with extra muscles, extra passionate and extra melanin. I agree, media have been polluted people mindset with tons of negative news and information about black people, especially African, talking about their war, their government blah blah blah. Okay, to be fair, probably some of them are bad guy, but most of the blacks are just like us, normal people, even me, i don't think that Chinese is a perfect race, eh please lar, Chinese does do rob, drugs, fraud or fight, some of us do. But we can't just refuse to accept people because they are different from us.

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Anyway, the event went so well, especially the food, uhh, so good *eyesrolling*. Talking about food, i think i should go buy some food for breakfast later :d. And we took a lot of photos, chat a little bit and know each other, it was a brand new experience for me to communicate and connected with people who have totally different background from me. I think i will join next time if there's a event similar like this again, but no 'trying to convince me to be Christian' session. I'm not believe in god, at least not now.

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Oh btw, we've met Iranian version of one direction.

The last two from left, please be nice, no assaulting here.

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Go grab some food now. Bai.

The Hunger Games

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So i just went to cinema for this movie, 'The Hunger Games' which is probably the hottest movie in every cinema now. It was okay, but to be fair, due to the limited story line, Gary did try his best to present the originality with his incredible cinematography skill in this movie. RM10 for a 2 and half hours movie, so worth it, maybe not the best, but it was nice.

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I didn't read the book, and i'm glad i didn't, because if i did, i would be way more disappointed than now. Honestly, i don't really like the story line, okay, maybe the materials they used were special, but the whole story line was based on love, sometimes, it gets boring, that's why i don't really movies like 'Twilight' or 'John Carter'. I think that's a small little tiny disappointment FOR ME. When i thought they are gonna eat those poisoned berries, and attempt to die together, i was like 'okay, it's kinda interesting' but somehow i know that's not gonna happen, because that is not what teenagers nowadays want to see. Sadly, yeah, they didn't. The ending was predictable, nothing surprising. Sorry if I've being extremely picky, maybe it's just not my type of movie i like.

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Too much to show, too little time to have. Too much focus on Katniss, there was no characteristic about other characters, even Peeta. And i don't think Peeta was described as a coward in the original novel, but in this movie, he is kinda coward. The only scene that showed his ability was the scene he throw the steel ball (i don't even know what it is made of, and how heavy it is), that was a cursory description. But since they really focus on Katniss, the journey that she had been through has been explained well and clearly.

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Other than that, costume was fantastic; sounds effect, okay; cinematography, fantastic; CG effect, could be better; cast, great; overall, good but not great, 6.5/10 i would give. I'll give it a shot to the book i think, because book always better than movie, that's what i believe. Many people compare this to Twilight, but i have to say, definitely 31354657486321234 times better than twilight. At least i didn't fall asleep during watching The Hunger Games.

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Owh, i really like Rue in The Hunger Games. She was adorable. Her real name is Amandla Stenberg, if you've watched the movie called 'Colombiana', then you will definitely remember her remarkable acting in that movie too. This is her photo.

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She's adorable, don't you think?

Read it, and forget it. Whatever.

So many things to learn, so little time to have. ......erm, okay, maybe i was just wasting my precious time by doing nothing. That's how plan goes. We planned, we abandoned. Reality is the reality you have to face anyway. But whatever, who cares?

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Studying exam is a misery. I have been suffering by studying exam all the time. I know why I always failed my exam, not literally failed, but not as good as i expected, and every time i try my best to memorize it, the harder i try, the less thing i can remember. Yes, i'm suffering now, i'm studying my exam, and writing my blog at the same time. What a good student huh?!

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But, you know what, as i said, you probably can get A in every subjects, no matter that is theory or design subject, but it doesn't mean that you are a good designer too. No offence, but this is one of the reality too. You can get good result because you done all your best to impress the lecturer or teacher, and you did as good as lecturer expected, but you'll never know, all the stuff you did is all in the box, being a designer, you should have your own way to create something really unique and unexpectable. But to someone, that's unacceptable.

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You can say that i'm finding excuses to escape from studying, whatever. What i said is what i said. I don't even care your opinion, you can be a fucking examination machine, i don't care, that's your life, but you'll never be a successful person in designing. Just saying.

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Yeah, maybe i'm just jealous.

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By the way, what is my attitude problem? What does that supposed to mean? I never showed my attitude since i had graduated from my high school. For me, attitude problem is kinda serious problem, and i've been labeled 'attitude student' all the time? What the fuck are you thinking? You know what, forget it, cause you will never understand me anyway, and i don't expect you to.

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The scar will heal, as time goes by.

These Broken Hands of Mine

No reason, just obsessed with this song.

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Adele dream.

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I dreamt about Adele this morning, she was singing 'someone like you', and she look gorgeous.

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Sometimes it last in love but sometimes it hurt instead.

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I gotta move on. As my friend said, i deserve better.