Hey, look at this. It's only for you. :)

The present i gave probably is not the most expensive one between all of your presents, but i did spend a lot of time on it, so preciouskan okay! And i know you will be reading this article, so i actually saved my money by not giving you a birthday card, if i did, you'll throw it anyway. So, blah. And yeah, this article dedicated to you. ONLY ;)
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Hey, 21 years old d lah bitch, it's time to grow up and learn how to forget stuff. I know i told you like 15416546132 times, and you promised me like 564864321321 times, but you never actually done that. It's time to have some different wishes, being stubborn is not helping, and not gonna make your wish come true anyway. Watching you in pain is bad, and i know that feeling somehow, HAHAHA. Please, this time make it real. I know it's hard, but at least try kay!
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Owh, next time, wear the skirt i gave you, and we dating again kay?
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Happy Birthday and may your wishes all come true. :)

No, no scream, just talk.

It has been a long time, still, i couldn't let it go. Don't ask me why, i just couldn't, with no reason. I hope someday, someone will be replacing someone, something will be changed, and somewhere will be gone far away. But before that day comes, i need to hold and try to get used to that kind of pain. Or misery i would say.
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Honestly, there's nothing i can do, nothing. Sometimes, you just can't get what you want even though you tried hard, no why, if that is not belongs to you, then that will not and never belongs to you in the future anyway. It's worth to try thou. It makes you grow, makes you strong, makes you become a better person, that's what i feel. Probably there's a little bit disappointment, pain and scar, but at the end, worth it, so worth it.
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Anyway, I want you to be mine.
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'You, coward.'
'Yes, i am.'

No, i'm still a free thinker.

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'A spectacular blend of arts, music and performance from countries around the world.' -- International Cultural Nite.

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So i went to this with Melissa and Christine, with Michael invitation. First of all, i have to say, they've blended into Malaysia cultural so well, event supposedly should start from 4, but they started from 5.30, typical Malaysian cultural. Anyway, we saw Mr. Zahari and his son too, but they'd left before the event end which is understandable, first, Mr. Zahari was kind of sick and secondly, i can't imagine how's that feels as a Muslim sitting inside the hall and listening to others praising to Jesus. And NO, i don't know Muslim can't go inside the church. Slap me please, but that was only a hall with a huge christian cross, not a church, so it's okay lar. And Bryan and Michelle and Michelle parents were there too.

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Bryan and Michelle, still gorgeous.

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I met a lot of people from other countries with different skin color, language, cultural and personality through this event and i learned something about people which is quite such a impact to me, especially people with black skinned. When i was small, my mum always threatened me with black people (no matter is Indian, Bengali or African, just black people) if i did something wrong or i tried to do something bad, so this mindset had been set into my brain for 20 years, until i met Michael. From that moment on, i feel like they are just like us, normal people, probably with extra muscles, extra passionate and extra melanin. I agree, media have been polluted people mindset with tons of negative news and information about black people, especially African, talking about their war, their government blah blah blah. Okay, to be fair, probably some of them are bad guy, but most of the blacks are just like us, normal people, even me, i don't think that Chinese is a perfect race, eh please lar, Chinese does do rob, drugs, fraud or fight, some of us do. But we can't just refuse to accept people because they are different from us.

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Anyway, the event went so well, especially the food, uhh, so good *eyesrolling*. Talking about food, i think i should go buy some food for breakfast later :d. And we took a lot of photos, chat a little bit and know each other, it was a brand new experience for me to communicate and connected with people who have totally different background from me. I think i will join next time if there's a event similar like this again, but no 'trying to convince me to be Christian' session. I'm not believe in god, at least not now.

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Oh btw, we've met Iranian version of one direction.

The last two from left, please be nice, no assaulting here.

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Go grab some food now. Bai.